I admit it. I have a party girl syndrome every couple weeks.
I finally understand that I have been seeking connection through substances. I have been trying to escape and avoid reality. I now understand that it’s temporary liquid courage, temporary connection – it isn’t real.
What’s real is a deeper connection to self, facing the insecurities in the face and finding all I need inside myself. Next time I want to escape my reality through partying or any mind alterning substances.
I shall ask myself the following. Thank you @shanethesoundhealer for putting those together.
Is there anything I’m doing that’s getting in my own way?
Is there anything I should be doing that’s delaying my process?
Is there any resentment, guilt, shame, or suffering that I’m holding onto?
How can I be more of myself? And what do I truly love and want to do?
What am I calling into my life for peace, prosperity, and abundance?
What expectations am I setting for myself or others that is unachievable?
When was the last time I did something completely for myself and for no one else?
When was the last time I forgave myself? Of my challenges, and shortcomings, what truly belongs to me?
Am I taking responsibility or blame shaming?
When was the last time I had a real hug?
When was the last time I gave a real hug?
Do I have challenges in receiving? Do I have deeper challenges in “allowing”?
Where in my life am I being authentic? Within integrity?
Not authentic or not integral? What’s my relationship with risk? Vulnerability?
Who am I trying to save lest myself? Is there anything I am projecting?
Where in my life am I being to hard, critical, or judgmental on myself?
When was the last time I showed myself compassion?
Where in my being can I soften any place that feels heavy?